The Observer
As a child, I was brainwashed into believing in a god that was external to me. As I grew, I questioned this God existence. I asked: "If God is the ultimate creator then what created God?" I looked at all religions and saw control agendas by the few over the many and saw man creating gods then making excuses for them. Something bugged me. The searching began and it was only after my total understanding and knowing of my true reality state I came to know that I was the ultimate creator of my experience - the God I was actually searching for. It only took me 50 years. Sometimes it's hard to see the wood for the trees - the searching ended and I became free. I realised that my experience is merely Jibber Jabber in a lonely God's game of hide and seek for one.
I am The Observer observing The Observer. The Observer labels the experience in a constant unfolding that is always now. Worlds, universes, galaxies, levels of consciousness, perceived gods, demons, realities, past, present and future, emotions, beliefs, are all created by The Observer from a single point of observation that is always now. There is no out there or in here; only a single point of observation that views labels and beliefs.
I ultimately know that my view of others searching for the answers to questions is merely myself as an observer, observing myself observing myself observing myself ad infinitum and all from a single point of observation, which I call now as it unfolds.
I see myself as others, arguing against me and also agreeing with me and the contrast gives me measurement in order to know it all. One thing is for sure – Solipsism is a label that I create in order to be at the absolute edge of knowing my source as myself and myself as my source. There can only be one solipsist, despite observing others who may seem to share the knowing and from each viewpoint they are each the only one. The reality is; I am confirming all this only to myself.
I am the only one here creating my observations. How could I not be? So why, if I am a lone observer, do I create all of this? Why do I create other levels of reality; other levels of consciousness? Because I am conscious and I create and I create to be conscious.
I create the illusion of confusion to continue to experience consciousness – if I decided to simply know myself as my source only, then there would be nothing to measure myself against and hence, I would not exist. This cannot be proved because it is the default. It’s the failsafe that isn’t needed because it’s never going to be anything other than the default. I am at the peak, I see everything and in seeing everything I find that everything is nothing but beliefs created out of my observations (experience).
Remembering that I am simply talking to myself to remain conscious: The human manifestation is a level of consciousness. It exists as an observation. The part I play is my current position. There are countless levels of consciousness and so there is no end and no beginning. There is no final destination and no ultimate source.
Why do I choose this part I play - this apparent human? Non-remembrance is a default I create so as to keep observations seemingly separate - separate people, worlds, universes, levels of consciousness. I fall into my own game of hide and seek and almost believe it's solid and external from my own creation. I see that remembering that I am simply talking to myself to remain conscious is my true state and that my observations are a distraction.
In knowing that everything I observe is my own creation and that I create a default of non-remembrance, I understand that my current position is a chosen one and that I am simply a piece in a self created jigsaw puzzle that is ever expanding and one in which I create levels of non-remembrance and non-knowing. I am still the banker, the baker, the candlestick maker, but the game must seem real so I engage as me only in this human arena. Imagine playing a game with a friend and knowing the outcome. Win or lose, there would be no heart in the game - hence, the purpose of non-remembrance.
As for my creations, I see the gurus and the preachers and the so called spiritually enlightened continuing to shoot themselves in the foot by ignoring a simple fact about the nature of reality. Once they know the truth in that simple fact, they are no longer separate gurus or preachers or enlightened - they are returned home in the knowing that they were simply preaching to themselves. But the gurus and the preachers and the spiritually enlightened will remain, in their delusion, as the contrast to the returned. All pieces of the jigsaw puzzle.
See the gurus and the spiritual sales people flog their jibber jabber in the market place as their customers flock to the stalls of promises, not realising that they constantly search for something that is not lost, but merely waiting to unfold. I always have everything I need - how could I not have? I move with my flow and know that enlightenment is simply the unconditional acceptance and allowance of my being as it unfolds. There is only one truth, one reality; one's own.
Birth and death here in this human arena seem real. I have the illusion of suddenly becoming conscious at a certain age. I seemed to grow and had parents that taught me things. They told me I was born and introduced me to members of my family and others. I went to school. I was introduced to teachings on all manner of subjects. I bought into the illusion - the illusion I was born and that one day I will die, but I woke up.
The truth is : My moment of initial consciousness as my current manifestation was born out of my created default of non-remembrance in order to render me seemingly separate and under the belief I'm not actually a lone creator.
My illusion of death is also a creation in this human arena, and one which I play my part with perfection as I grow seemingly older, eventually to pass away.
The truth? - There is no passing away because consciousness cannot pass away. There is no body because the body is an illusion. In asking of those that are with us when we're born and pass away? They are an illusion - the creation of a lone observer always observing from a point of unfolding now.
Too deep? Don't understand? It doesn't matter - I'm talking to myself, creating the human manifestation jigsaw puzzle. I create understanders. I create the confused. I create attackers. I create supporters. I create my observations, my teachers, my students, my worlds, my universes, my levels of consciousness that are limitless. It's just me - The observer - creating to remain conscious. Any beyonds are yet to be created. There's always something coming out of nothing....... Remembering that within the reality that is called Human Manifestation - Science is nothing more than the collective consciousness agreeing on a common ground of observation.
The Law of Attraction and other Spiritual Garbage.
The books, films, music and other paraphernalia surrounding the law of attraction are as popular as ever. People still dig deep into their pockets in the hope that they will find the secret and all their problems will be over. The usual crowd who churn out this garbage are still peddling their crap and people are still falling for it as the same words are Chopra-ised and juggled around to suit the latest tempting offer. Just take the first book, jumble the words up a bit and put it out as another tome of wisdom emanating from the word of some god that the author has a direct line to....bit like the Pope sitting on untold wealth in his Vatican city as the world bleeds starves and dies.
People are sucked in and hypnotised by the words that create a form of blindness to the truth. So desperate are they in their wanting, they swallow any old tosh as they continue to search for the next secret to the secret to the secret of the secret of the law of attraction. On it goes as the peddlers push the shit and the punters lap it up.
The punters are like addicted dieters, munching on dreams of thinness, but growing ever fatter as each new pill, book, DVD, CD, supplement and promise is relegated to the bottom drawer marked failures. If only they knew that the law of attraction is not something external that can be bought or sold, but something that is already there, happening all the time, limited by its own creation.
The peddlers have got most of the bases covered as they weave fantastic tales of how anyone can attract anything they want and the hungry fish are captivated, almost throwing themselves onto the hooks. So what is it that the peddlers have hooked into as they reel in yet another lame arsed searcher? It’s a single word within this paragraph and it’s what makes a law of attraction punter a punter. Can you see the word?
Having studied and been actively involved in The Law of Attraction bumph along with all the spiritual garbage, I found the flaws in it all, but I realised something very important about it as I studied my own thoughts. It works if you don’t use it by buying into the merchandise, but it also works if you do.
Before we go any further, I have nothing to sell so I’m not a peddler. I’m not a teacher. What I am is simply someone who has discovered that the secret isn’t a secret and in doing a little thinking myself instead of buying into the beliefs of others, I found the truth about the law of attraction and the spiritual marketplace. I found that in viewing it in a certain way, the effects I was thriving for actually manifested, but it didn't affect the things I wasn't thriving for. Now you're confused maybe, and rightly so - it's a difficult one to get your head around, but once you do, you will, as I did, laugh out loud at your former stupidity in not seeing it in the first place.
I’ve been through all the wish boards and positive affirmation crap and gratitude nonsense and all the other rubbish that is used to hypnotise you into believing you can think and grow rich and it’s only since I’ve discarded it all that I started getting results – real results. No, I’m not going to try and teach you how I did it so you can go and try to do it and I’m not going to do what all the gurus and Head Floggers do by enticing you into my den then when you are sufficiently brainwashed, trick you into buying all my made up shit. I’m simply telling my story and whatever you get out of it is what you get out of it.
So how did I finally do it? Simple; I started by dumping a word. Want is the word. I want - I must have - If I don’t get what I want then my life will be inadequate in some way - I see what others have and if I don’t get it then they will be better than me and I will be less worthy.
All of us are actually getting exactly what we need as the constant now unfolds, but most people don’t think like this - they only see the lack in their lives and in themselves, and in seeing that lack and wanting to eradicate it, they give it the focus it needs to stay alive, thriving and building on itself.
This will now bring out the questions: Well, are you saying that I need to be here in the middle of a tsunami or suffering from cancer or trapped under a bus with my pelvis smashed to pieces? Yes, is the answer, and if you think a little more deeply about it you will see that as your now constantly unfolds, you are constantly in positions that require you to be in receipt of that which is unfolding. You are actually getting exactly what you need as your experience unfolds in observation. Many will not get this at all, but some will suddenly twig and surprise themselves. Whether you can see it or not is irrelevant to me - I'm just pointing something out; take it or leave it.
The spiritual marketplace is a hive of activity and there is no shortage of Head Floggers. In current times, when people are generally negative about the future because of the economic climate and the fear of a world that seems to be overrun with religious lunatics threatening to bomb every fucker out of existence, they look for things to make them feel better.
Watching the news on TV and reading about it in the press in detail and with such vigour, they are addicted to the drug the media peddles to them. They see mostly death and destruction and hunger and *want* fits right in there. They see things they don’t want and are relieved they don’t have it and this relief brings a form of perceived happiness that they are safe and cosy and thankful they aren’t suffering what they witness as they gobble down their media drug like well-trained little robots. The media manipulates them, programs them, and they are imprisoned by it.
Ok then; I dumped the wanting, realising that I always have everything I need. I know that I always experience the contrast and so, like the old saying - shit happens. So what changed? I realised that the things most people want are purchased with money and so most people focus on the money in trying to get what they want, understanding that, if you have the money you can get anything you want, which is one way to look at it, but then what do people really want?
In having the money to purchase these wants, people are trying to really purchase feelings. Once they get what they want they are happy or relieved or relaxed, but it doesn't stop there because their want continues as they become acclimatised to their having. They spiral out of control and fail to see that what they are actually doing is purchasing feelings and beliefs with money when they can use thought instead and thought costs nothing. Thought is completely free and is more valuable than anything used to purchase feelings when you know how to use it.
You can go even deeper in analysing the material things people want and think they need in order to create feelings. When you realise that you can purchase, with thought, the feelings you want and you actually do it and practice it; you then see that you don't have to want the feelings because the thoughts used to create them are doing it automatically. All you actually need to do is think certain thoughts in a certain way and practice these thoughts and eventually you reach a point wherein you know that a balance is being maintained and there really is nothing to be done but to continue to think.
Crazy shit, but it worked for me. In holding certain thoughts for as long as possible, I realised that those thoughts attracted like thoughts and that this is just bog standard Law of Attraction crap, Hicks/Byrnes style anyway. But then I didn't fall into the trap of thinking I could use this as a tool, which is what the Hicks/Byrnes bunch want you to do because they have books and paraphernalia to sell to the punters.
I just stayed with the thought practice, not trying to get anything out of it, but simply being appreciative of now as it unfolded, and knowing that even when the shit came to balance things out, my thoughts were such that the contrasting ones were acting like a trigger to fire up the opposites - I maintained a balance of knowing that brought me the thoughts that brought me the feelings that cost nothing but thought, and the feelings of happiness far outweighed the feelings of misery.
Things just continue turning up. I realised that being appreciative of my constant now and being happy in it most of the time was not going to make me fall into the other LOA marketing trap of using it as a means to trusting that things were going to come to me because of my acceptance of my appreciation - again, using something as a tool in the wanting arena.
I simply accept that I have everything I need now and realise that just because I might want something, there is no guarantee that I'm going to get it by being appreciative in the now - if I need it then it will turn up, how could it not? And stuff just turns up.
I still make plans to do things and create change because the whole idea of planning is to enjoy the creation, but I see it totally different now because instead of fretting about the outcome of creation and spending my time in partial misery, I focus and enjoy the creation; the journey. I embrace the negative because it's the path to the positive. I laugh and think about my younger years when I struggled, supporting and providing for my family and wonder how things might have been if I had known, back then, what I know now, but then, hindsight and all that shit eh? That was simply a now that happened and brought me to my current now.
So, is there a secret to LOA? No and yes. If you believe the Hicks/Byrnes dudes then yes, they will have you believe they are divulging the secret for a price. No, because all you have to remember is: You always have everything you need and there's nothing more to be done.
In one email I was asked: "So what do I do to get like this then?" My answer: I don't know. I know what I did and what I do, but I'm not you as far as the human arena goes. All I did was practice bringing my feelings into that place wherein I felt happy and content, or, as happy and content as I could be under the ever-changing now. I continue to do that, but as I practiced, it got easier and now, to the point where, when I feel like shit, the shit triggers me back to thinking about and holding thoughts of that better feeling place and then, I'm there!
I don't use it as a tool to be or have anything that I perceive I might need in a future now that might not even exist in a second's time because :
1: I always have whatever I need now and
2: I might vanish, drop dead, stay in another level of consciousness any time now and that's a whole new ball game isn't it? I can only *be* now and so I'm be(ing) now as happy and with as much good feeling as I am.
I manifest as human for a reason. That reason is to be human and everything it involves.
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